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Buh-Bye, Bridezilla.

It’s true. After my family threw me a beautiful shower, full of genuine love, I had a full-on panic attack. You can ask my maid of honor. I was ashamed to admit it to my mom, especially, but the entire two hours of gifts, and love, and games, I was tortured with thoughts of uncertainty: Are the guests happy? Am I funny enough? Are they bored? Have I thanked people enough? Do they really love me? 

And then it hit me: I’m going to ruin my wedding day for myself, my future husband, and all the people I love, if I don’t do something about my anxiety.

You see, wedding planning, or anything else for that matter, didn’t cause my anxiety. I did.

When I was in 2nd or 3rd grade, I realized that if I didn’t give my opinion, my friends wouldn’t be mad at me. The second I stuck up for something or said how I truly felt, inevitably, one of my friends would get mad.

“Well, easy. I just won’t be my full self.”

And that’s where it began. Since then, I’ve constantly worried about my life and what other people thought of it. I have told myself that if I am truly honest and truly vulnerable, that other people won’t like me.

The uncertainty about how other people will feel on my wedding day has been my focus. But the reality that I might ruin one of the most special days of my life has created a shift in me: I HAVE TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT THIS.

As the universe would have it, I ran into a woman named Dr. Kay Corpus. She’s using a holistic, integrative approach to help me get to the bottom of my anxiety and figure out what’s really going on.

I’ve made a lot of progress in our first two sessions, and as the wedding day approaches, I’m feeling calmer and calmer, which I think is a good sign.

I wrote this blog simply to tell you that if you have anxiety, if you fear the unknown, if you worry about what other people think, if you have thoughts that make your back hurt, your chest tight, or give you headaches…YOU ARE NOT ALONE.

You have the power to change your life. You have the power to set yourself free. It’s what I’m attempting to do right now, so that I can open myself up to a peaceful, fulfilled, authentic existence.

My wedding day is going to be a beautiful, uplifting, spiritual day, full of the love that Nick and I share. And it will be, because I will resonate those things from the inside-out.

I hope you’ll reach out to me if any of this resonated with you. Anxiety can be a very isolating experience, but it doesn’t have to be.

Lots of love,

Shayla

PS. While you’re planning the gorgeous details of your fabulous wedding, don’t forget to focus on the gorgeous details of your fabulous inner-being. 😉

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Saying “YES!” (Right after “ARE YOU SERIOUS?!”)

Nick really blew me away with his proposal. When I say I had no idea, I really mean it. In fact, when we were walking down to our gondola boat ride, with a wine bottle and glasses in hand, I said to him, “You know, people probably think you’re going to propose to me! HAHA!”

I’m sure I made him a little nervous with that one, but that’s how blissfully unaware I was. I had been making him nervous all day saying things like “maybe we shouldn’t dress up this much” and “I am in such a bad mood because I don’t like how my nails turned out.” I get a little dramatic sometimes…

We got on the boat and our gondolier drove us around the lake at Hilton Lake Las Vegas. He pointed out Celine Dion’s house and Nick later mentioned he thought that might be the moment the gondolier would drop our “message in a bottle” in the water.

At some point during the ride, we found ourselves in a little cove and were talking about how beautiful everything was when the gondolier pointed out something floating in the water. I can only imagine that Nick’s heart started beating pretty hard at this point. I still had no idea.

“Let’s go see what it is!” I said ignorantly. “Oh my gosh. There’s a message in it! This is crazy!!”

I am also a little gullible sometimes…

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Nick got the bottle out of the water and handed it to me. When I saw the silver string wrapped around it, I knew something was happening. This wasn’t an ordinary message floating in a bottle in the middle of the lake after all…

I opened the letter to find a simple, sweet message from Nick asking me to marry him. He got down on one knee and I said “Are you serious?!” a few times before finally saying “Yes!” (He later admitted his knees got weak when I didn’t say ‘yes’ right away. Girlfriend was shocked, okay?!)

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Being a girl in my early twenties (wink), I told him we had to take a picture of all these happenings! That’s when he pointed out that he had already taken care of that. (See below.)

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I was OBVIOUSLY impressed. He had a photographer hiding on land! I started rambling, as I do sometimes, and telling him I couldn’t wait to tell my parents and how I wished they weren’t on a plane flying back to Indiana from Las Vegas right now.

Nick bit his tongue. We took some photos with the photographer and then went back to land to eat and celebrate at Sunset and Vine.

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When we walked around to our table, my heart exploded. My parents were still there! We had dropped them off at the airport earlier, but they actually just rented a car and came out to the lake for the festivities. Nick’s parents had chocolate covered strawberries and champagne sent to our table. We Facetimed with them and squealed in our delight. Okay, that was just me.

It was absolute perfection. Nick LaGrange deserves major accolades for his preparation and execution. February 15, 2015 is a day that will be hard to top. Let’s see if June 3, 2016 can give it a run for its money.

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LOVE YOU, NICKOLAS DANE!

Photos by M Place Productions

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