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Creating a Show-Up, Not Give-Up Kinda Life

Fitness matters. It matters more than calories in, calories out. It matters more than a number on a scale. It even matters more than getting a six pack by June (and, yes, that has recently been a hashtag on my Insta).

Since moving to Las Vegas two months ago, there has hardly been a day that I haven’t sweat or pushed myself beyond what I thought my physical limits were. And while I have seen significant and welcome changes to my physique, the real change has been mental.

I’m learning that pain and struggle are surmountable, that challenge isn’t a bad word and that if you keep showing up, it does get easier. It becomes your lifestyle to keep showing up.

I had a meeting with a commercial agent today that didn’t go very well. She told me that she had no room for me, she wouldn’t book me and that I looked much older than my picture. Folks, that hurt. I most definitely had a moment of “can I handle this?” going through my head.

But then I went on a run tonight. And let me express how much I am intimidated by running. I don’t think I’m built for it and I kind of, sort of hate it, but I know I’ve got to show up and challenge myself in that area.

During the run I thought to myself, “This is why I workout. If you just keep going, despite being uncomfortable, despite the pain, despite feeling like giving up, you’re eventually to get what you want.”

Okay, so I didn’t think EXACTLY that. But it was something like that, interjected with thoughts about my burning calves, tight chest and the stupidity I felt for running right after downing some pork chops and quinoa.

The point it is, I can’t let someone’s opinion stop me from doing what I love to do and I can’t let a little burn in my calves stop me from finishing the run. Every day that I get up and push myself physically a little further than I’ve been before, I’m also creating a mental toughness that will feed the rest of my life.

Get up and get out there. Though I do suggest you start sweating doing something you love, not something you kind of, sort of hate. 😉



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Estroblock Pro: My Acne Miracle

If you know me extremely well, you know that one of my biggest insecurities for the last eight or so years has been my acne. I never had terrible cases, but it definitely affected the way I interacted with people and how social I was at points in my life. In the past couple years it has gotten better, but I’ve still dealt with hormonal acne on the chin and jaw line; cysts that last for weeks and leave long lasting scars. I tried many remedies to no avail.

I wrote a blog a few months ago about giving up ProActive in favor of a natural cleanser and manuka honey and while I am ELATED at the results (my face is younger looking, my complexion more even, my face looks more nourished), it didn’t fix the hormonal acne.

That’s when a friend (or shall I say ANGEL) recommended Estroblock Pro. It had changed my face. It’s a natural supplement in pill form. Not cheap, but my god was it effective for me! Within ONE MONTH of taking the recommended dose (religiously) my acne was completely gone. I haven’t had one single cyst in over two and half months. It seriously is my miracle and I wanted to share this with anyone that might have the same problem I did.

What is it?

It’s an all natural compound extracted from broccoli and cruciferous vegetables that helps your liver metabolize bad estrogen that we get from the food we eat and our environment, i.e. plastic. It is basically a detox for hormonal balancing.

According to the Estroblock website:

“Xenoestrogens are often produced by toxins commonly found in our food and homes that, left unchecked, will dilute our naturally produced hormones and cause major health problems such as acne, obesity, or even breast and prostate cancers.”

The best part is, it’s working for many more people than just me! If you go to Amazon and read the reviews, most of them are glowing reports similar to mine.

It probably sounds like I’m trying to sell you on this, but I just feel incredibly passionate about spreading the word.

Estroblock Website

I hope someone benefits from reading this!





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It’s happening- even without Facebook.

This morning I was inspired by a woman named Glennon Doyle Melton. She wrote the bestseller Carry On, Warrior and she, to me, exemplifies what it means to be a truth seeker and a truth teller. Not only does she bravely open up about her struggles and her victories, but she does it in a way that makes you fall in love with her. You fall in love with who she is and who she isn’t because she tells the truth about both. All I can say is, if you aren’t following her on Momastery, you might want to consider doing it, BUT she won’t know because she announced today that she’s going on a 40-day internet cleanse. Her blog post about it can be found here. The blog itself really got me thinking and I want to expand with some of my own thoughts on the topic.

I don’t think that I can describe the social media yearning for that “thing” any better than she does (so I really suggest you read hers!), but sometimes I get that itch to write and I just have to scratch it. Social Media has become a way of life for many of us.  It’s an incredible thing and serves important purposes that were previously unmatched by any other medium.  I can only speak for myself, though, when I say that it’s becoming an addiction.

Yesterday, something awesome happened in my life- something I’ve wanted has come to fruition. The second I found out, I immediately called my Mom, my Dad and my boyfriend and, get this, NONE OF THEM ANSWERED. What?? I found myself dumbfounded. How was it supposed to feel real if someone else didn’t rejoice with me? 

My first instinct was to update my Facebook status. Seriously. I needed someone to tell me that I’d done a good job. I needed someone to say “you are worthy of my attention right now”.  I needed someone else to know what I’d done, so it could feel real. 

Here’s the thing: It’s awesome to celebrate with the people you love! It’s also totally valid to want to share great news with friends, acquaintances, and, heck, even strangers. But when I start to need their approval for events to feel real in my own heart, I’ve got to pause, reverse and take a moment for myself.

Glennon puts it like this:

Because over every celebration hangs the question,“so, what’s next?”  And so there is no satisfaction, no peace. It’s never done. It’s never good enough.

And this is why it is so important for us to take the time to define success for ourselves. Because if we let the world do it for us, the world will keep moving the finish line again and again and accidentally suck us dry. And we might do something awful like make ourselves sick or quit doing what we love to do. The world will NEVER say to us- “Enough, sweetheart. You did well. Relax and take care of yourself and your family and your friends and your dogs. Forever, if you’d like.”

She goes on to say that the moments we are really looking for, the moments that fulfill us for longer than those 10 incredible minutes when everyone is fawning over you and your accomplishments, are in and around us already. They are in our families, our children, our day-to-day, simple happenings that make us get goosebumps and look up at the sky and feel thankful to be where we are.

I’m coming to terms with my own need for validation right now, with this “good news” I’d like to share with the world. For now, I’m keeping it to myself and my closest allies.  I’m going to feel every moment of it for myself and when the time is right, when I’ve sucked every living good feeling out of it, I’ll share it with everyone.

I want things to feel real without the internet. I want moments to be cherished just as they are, while they’re happening.  I’m not giving up on social media yet, don’t get me wrong. I love me some baby pictures and keeping in touch with my far-away friends, but I want to find a balance. Balance is good. Life is good.

Until next time,


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July 19, 2013 · 4:05 pm