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Buh-Bye, Bridezilla.

It’s true. After my family threw me a beautiful shower, full of genuine love, I had a full-on panic attack. You can ask my maid of honor. I was ashamed to admit it to my mom, especially, but the entire two hours of gifts, and love, and games, I was tortured with thoughts of uncertainty: Are the guests happy? Am I funny enough? Are they bored? Have I thanked people enough? Do they really love me? 

And then it hit me: I’m going to ruin my wedding day for myself, my future husband, and all the people I love, if I don’t do something about my anxiety.

You see, wedding planning, or anything else for that matter, didn’t cause my anxiety. I did.

When I was in 2nd or 3rd grade, I realized that if I didn’t give my opinion, my friends wouldn’t be mad at me. The second I stuck up for something or said how I truly felt, inevitably, one of my friends would get mad.

“Well, easy. I just won’t be my full self.”

And that’s where it began. Since then, I’ve constantly worried about my life and what other people thought of it. I have told myself that if I am truly honest and truly vulnerable, that other people won’t like me.

The uncertainty about how other people will feel on my wedding day has been my focus. But the reality that I might ruin one of the most special days of my life has created a shift in me: I HAVE TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT THIS.

As the universe would have it, I ran into a woman named Dr. Kay Corpus. She’s using a holistic, integrative approach to help me get to the bottom of my anxiety and figure out what’s really going on.

I’ve made a lot of progress in our first two sessions, and as the wedding day approaches, I’m feeling calmer and calmer, which I think is a good sign.

I wrote this blog simply to tell you that if you have anxiety, if you fear the unknown, if you worry about what other people think, if you have thoughts that make your back hurt, your chest tight, or give you headaches…YOU ARE NOT ALONE.

You have the power to change your life. You have the power to set yourself free. It’s what I’m attempting to do right now, so that I can open myself up to a peaceful, fulfilled, authentic existence.

My wedding day is going to be a beautiful, uplifting, spiritual day, full of the love that Nick and I share. And it will be, because I will resonate those things from the inside-out.

I hope you’ll reach out to me if any of this resonated with you. Anxiety can be a very isolating experience, but it doesn’t have to be.

Lots of love,

Shayla

PS. While you’re planning the gorgeous details of your fabulous wedding, don’t forget to focus on the gorgeous details of your fabulous inner-being. 😉

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I NEED to stop saying this.

I NEED a new car.

I NEED to find a partner.

I NEED to make more money.

I NEED to workout tomorrow.

We all NEED so much these days, don’t we? I know I do.

But guess what? The more we repeat that mantra to ourselves, the more we acknoledge our lack of.  Repeating that simple word over and over throughout the day sucks the energy right out of our intentions. We’re actually less likely to make that thing happen because we’re recognizing and affirming our void.

You may NEED to get to the gym next week, but what if you started telling your friends that you are EXCITED to get back to your workout routine? What if you said you will really ENJOY eating fresh fruit for breakfast tomorrow morning? Maybe you are feeling GIDDY about the possibility of meeting someone new this week. What if you found it THRILLING to imagine finding a job that allows you to travel and afford to buy groceries for a stranger whenever you want?

It may feel funny and fake at first, but if you continue to retrain your thought patterns, you might notice you start to really believe the positive affirmation. 

TRY IT: 

Fill in the blank and say out loud: I NEED __________.

Repeat that 10 times.

Now rephrase: I’m so EXCITED to ____________.

Repeat that 10 times.

Did you immediately feel like what you want is more possible?

What is that you are EXCITED to accomplish this week?

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